My ex contacted me yesterday wanting to try and weazle her way back into my life. The way she thinks she is going to do this is by getting the kids Christmas presents. This girl is deranged. She has caused nothing but misery in my life. We broke up after she had slept with the 10th or so person who came along. She even thought she was pregnant (she only knew the guy one week and slept with him without a condom).
It was after that facade that I broke up with her. At the same time, my ex, who I love more than anyone I have ever loved, returned back into my life. Cause of her, I lost him, and now I feel like I’m always going to be alone. I’ve tried so hard to find someone new, but no one compares to him, and I don’t think that they ever will. Now, she has the guts to try and come back into my life. Is she out of her rocker?
I find out that the guy (she was with in July) and her are still together, and it makes me sick how unfair life is. This evil bitch took everything from me. Now, she is in love while I have nothing. I am trying so hard not to hate her and be happy for her, but it’s so hard. Why are people, like this girl, the ones who always get rewarded? I just want to go to sleep and travel back in time to when I had G. I want to be able to do everything over again, so I can get him back and tell that stupid, crazy girl to go to hell.
I’m angry and sad cause it’s just not right. She doesn’t deserve a thing. I told her to leave my kids and I alone. I told her not to get them any gifts, but she said she still will. I will just donate the presents. I might as well take a negative and make it into a positive.
UPDATE: I feel better now. I went to sleep and no longer want to think about it. I’m not going to compare myself to her anymore. My standards are higher than hers, and I am a stronger person, so it’s going to be harder to find someone.