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Feeling Discouraged


2010
01.25

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My sis­ter told me not to give up and started an EHar­mony account for me again.  I decided that I am busy, but ok, I will give it a shot.  I start talk­ing to this guy, and he asks to meet tomor­row.  Even though I am busy, I was look­ing for­ward to get­ting out of the house and meet­ing some­one new.  I check my EHar­mony account today, and he closed the match.  Reason?

“Want to pur­sue other matches.”

I’m feel­ing dis­cour­aged.  I know I shouldn’t be like this for one per­son, but why is it so hard for me to find some­one?  Even my ex, who ruined my life, has found some­one, and I can’t find a sin­gle per­son? Am I des­tined to be alone?  I don’t want to be 40 and still dat­ing ran­dom guys. 

I hon­estly feel that there is some­thing wrong with me.  I’m so tired of peo­ple say­ing that I am beau­ti­ful, smart, and have it going on, and I will find some­one new.  It’s been how long, and I still can’t find a sin­gle person?

Should I give up? I am tired of being rejected. I really am.  It’s one of the rea­sons that I have been obsessed with work.  I hate feel­ing like no one wants to take a chance to be with me.  I’m 31, and I feel like the boat is leaving. 

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Where Are All These Cute Guys Coming From?


2010
01.12

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I said that I was giv­ing up on love. Why is it that now I am see­ing all these cute guys?! First, my friend brings a cute guy to lunch, and we kept look­ing at one another. Now, I notice at work that there is this cute guy who works on my floor. We both headed to the ele­va­tor, and he started talk­ing to me. I was tongue tied because I didn’t know what to say. In a way, I wanted to talk to him, but then again, I didn’t.

I prob­a­bly will never see him again, but I won­der why all of a sud­den I am see­ing all these good-looking guys? I won­der if I should see this as a sign to not give up and that there is still hope. I’m start­ing to head in that kind of think­ing. Is it a sign? Or is it fate play­ing me a raw hand once again?

All I know is that I am tired of wast­ing my time and get­ting hurt. Maybe it’s a way to admire all the hot­ties out there with­out hav­ing to deal with any pain.