HeartBrakeHotel » ex http://heartbrakehotel.com he said/she said love and dating conversations Thu, 18 Mar 2010 01:47:19 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.9.1 en hourly 1 Ex, Keep Away From Me http://heartbrakehotel.com/2009/12/16/178/ http://heartbrakehotel.com/2009/12/16/178/#comments Thu, 17 Dec 2009 03:00:44 +0000 Clementine http://heartbrakehotel.com/2009/12/16/178/ My ex will not leave me alone.  She decided to not even speak after we tried to be friends, and now she is trying to reenter my life?  I honestly don’t want to go through the same headaches with her again, so I’d rather that she stay away.  The newest thing is that she is [...]]]> ex leave me alone

My ex will not leave me alone.  She decided to not even speak after we tried to be friends, and now she is trying to reenter my life?  I honestly don’t want to go through the same headaches with her again, so I’d rather that she stay away.  The newest thing is that she is now trying to buy Christmas gifts. I already told her that if she does, I am going to “Return to Sender.”

The reason I am being so mean is that I know that she isn’t doing it because she really loves me.  She is doing it cause she has this sickening obsession with me.  I really hope that this new guy she is doing takes her mind off of me.  Maybe if he marries her and whisks her away, then I never have to deal with her again.

I want to find someone who loves me for me, and doesn’t want me cause I am a challenge.  I do have some hope after talking to my engaged friend, and I feel like good things are coming my way, so let’s see.  Tomorrow I have a date from Chemistry.com, and I hope that he is a nice guy.  If he isn’t, I am going to keep on trying.  I don’t want to end up with someone like my ex, who is a complete loss of time. I know that I won’t though. Tags: , , ,

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]]> http://heartbrakehotel.com/2009/12/16/178/feed/ 2 ex leave me alone Evil Ex Gets The Life She Took Away From Me http://heartbrakehotel.com/2009/12/08/evil-ex-gets-the-life-she-took-away-from-me/ http://heartbrakehotel.com/2009/12/08/evil-ex-gets-the-life-she-took-away-from-me/#comments Wed, 09 Dec 2009 04:09:31 +0000 Clementine http://heartbrakehotel.com/?p=162 My ex contacted me yesterday wanting to try and weazle her way back into my life. The way she thinks she is going to do this is by getting the kids Christmas presents. This girl is deranged. She has caused nothing but misery in my life. We broke up after she [...]]]>

My ex contacted me yesterday wanting to try and weazle her way back into my life. The way she thinks she is going to do this is by getting the kids Christmas presents. This girl is deranged. She has caused nothing but misery in my life. We broke up after she had slept with the 10th or so person who came along. She even thought she was pregnant (she only knew the guy one week and slept with him without a condom).

It was after that facade that I broke up with her.  At the same time, my ex, who I love more than anyone I have ever loved, returned back into my life. Cause of her, I lost him, and now I feel like I’m always going to be alone.  I’ve tried so hard to find someone new, but no one compares to him, and I don’t think that they ever will.  Now, she has the guts to try and come back into my life. Is she out of her rocker?

I find out that the guy (she was with in July) and her are still together, and it makes me sick how unfair life is. This evil bitch took everything from me. Now, she is in love while I have nothing. I am trying so hard not to hate her and be happy for her, but it’s so hard. Why are people, like this girl, the ones who always get rewarded? I just want to go to sleep and travel back in time to when I had G. I want to be able to do everything over again, so I can get him back and tell that stupid, crazy girl to go to hell.

I’m angry and sad cause it’s just not right. She doesn’t deserve a thing. I told her to leave my kids and I alone. I told her not to get them any gifts, but she said she still will. I will just donate the presents. I might as well take a negative and make it into a positive.

UPDATE: I feel better now.  I went to sleep and no longer want to think about it.  I’m not going to compare myself to her anymore.  My standards are higher than hers, and I am a stronger person, so it’s going to be harder to find someone.


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]]> http://heartbrakehotel.com/2009/12/08/evil-ex-gets-the-life-she-took-away-from-me/feed/ 0 Trouble Letting Go of Ex http://heartbrakehotel.com/2009/10/02/no-more-merry-go-round/ http://heartbrakehotel.com/2009/10/02/no-more-merry-go-round/#comments Fri, 02 Oct 2009 19:23:24 +0000 Clementine http://heartbrakehotel.com/2009/10/02/no-more-merry-go-round/ It seems like every time I decide to let go of my ex, she comes crawling back when I least expect it. In July, she literally told me to “f*ck off” and leave her alone. This is when I was just trying to be friends with, in hopes that something could rekindle, and we could [...]]]> Merry-go-round2

It seems like every time I decide to let go of my ex, she comes crawling back when I least expect it. In July, she literally told me to “f*ck off” and leave her alone. This is when I was just trying to be friends with, in hopes that something could rekindle, and we could be together. After months of not hearing from her, I get a text message. “I’m glad that you’re happy. I read your blog” I shouldn’t have responded, but I did. I just wrote back: “I hope you are happy as well. Bye L.” She kept texting, but I ignored them. It’s done.

I spent over three and half years waiting around hoping that she would eventually close her legs to any guy or girl who came around and focus on me.  The day never came.  I find out this past spring that while she could never be faithful to me, she was to another woman.  It pained me.  My friend thinks it’s cause she always felt like I was the one with the power in the relationship, so she always felt like she had to rebel.  I think he might be right because she used to always say she was so weak with me.  Even when she said she didn’t want to talk to me, she said it’s cause she is too obsessed with  me.

I have started dating this guy, and I am feeling pretty positive about it.  We seem to get along, and he makes me smile.  Will things work out between us?  Who knows, but all I can do is remain optimistic and not reacquaint myself with people who constantly cheat and lie to me.  I still love her, but love isn’t everything.

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At work, I started working with this guy. The problem? He looks and acts like my ex. The ex who still haunts my dream, and I have loved more than any man. I am really dreading working with this guy any longer. He makes me think about my ex more than I should. It’s crazy how everything about this man reminds me of him:

The way he walks, his clothes, his cocky attitude, his smile, the way he bites his bottom lip when he is thinking, the way he stares at me, how serious he is when he is talking, but in a second, he begins to smirk

I can tell he is interested in me, but this doppleganger makes me want to run the other way. It makes me think about how obsessed and blind I was. When this doppleganger talks and stares at me, I feel the urge to passionately kiss him, but then I remember that he isn’t my ex. All that is left is this feeling of loneliness that has creeped up on me.

What should you do if you work for someone who reminds you of your ex? All you can do is grin and bear it. One thing I have started to do is not look at this man as much as I was before. If I feel myself thinking about my ex, I quickly think about something else. Keeping busy is key.

Will this lonely feeling go away? It will when I stop working with this man. Let’s just hope that it’s soon.


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]]> http://heartbrakehotel.com/2009/09/09/doppleganger-of-ex-running-around/feed/ 2 Reblog this post [with Zemanta] Letting Go of a Past Relationship http://heartbrakehotel.com/2009/08/20/leave-the-past-behind-to-find-a-new-lover/ http://heartbrakehotel.com/2009/08/20/leave-the-past-behind-to-find-a-new-lover/#comments Fri, 21 Aug 2009 03:44:11 +0000 Clementine http://heartbrakehotel.com/?p=10 leaving the past behind you…, originally uploaded by Jeffrey Eric. Every self-help book that I have read has the same philosophy when it comes to the past. Leave it behind. You will never be able to move forward if you are still dwelling on it. It’s something that I keep getting better at [...]]]> past

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Every self-help book that I have read has the same philosophy when it comes to the past. Leave it behind. You will never be able to move forward if you are still dwelling on it. It’s something that I keep getting better at doing in all parts of my life, except my love life.

I keep thinking about two of my exes, and I know that I won’t be able to find someone who I can be in a healthy relationship with until I forget them. They were both detrimental to my emotional and physical health, so I know that I can’t keep thinking about them. Out of two, I will have to say that L. is the one I really have to stop thinking about. Our three-year relationship was filled with her constant cheating, lies, and psychological imbalance. She was abusive and mean. I know that she hasn’t changed, even though she says she has, so I don’t know why it’s so hard to stop thinking about this girl.

It’s hard when it’s someone of the same gender. She is not just your lover; she is also your best friend. With a guy, you can mope around for a bit, but eventually, you get up and keep going. With a woman, you feel like you have no one, especially when you alienated everyone to the point that it was just you two.

I am slowly forgetting about her cause I know that she has ridiculous issues. A month ago, I joined eHarmony, and I am meeting some amazing guys. There are three that I am really interested in, so I am excited to say that I am going out with my top one out of three this Saturday, so wish me luck!


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