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Ex, Keep Away From Me


2009
12.16

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My ex will not leave me alone.  She decided to not even speak after we tried to be friends, and now she is try­ing to reen­ter my life?  I hon­estly don’t want to go through the same headaches with her again, so I’d rather that she stay away.  The newest thing is that she is now try­ing to buy Christ­mas gifts. I already told her that if she does, I am going to “Return to Sender.”

The rea­son I am being so mean is that I know that she isn’t doing it because she really loves me.  She is doing it cause she has this sick­en­ing obses­sion with me.  I really hope that this new guy she is doing takes her mind off of me.  Maybe if he mar­ries her and whisks her away, then I never have to deal with her again.

I want to find some­one who loves me for me, and doesn’t want me cause I am a chal­lenge.  I do have some hope after talk­ing to my engaged friend, and I feel like good things are com­ing my way, so let’s see.  Tomor­row I have a date from Chem​istry​.com, and I hope that he is a nice guy.  If he isn’t, I am going to keep on try­ing.  I don’t want to end up with some­one like my ex, who is a com­plete loss of time. I know that I won’t though. Tags: , , ,

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Evil Ex Gets The Life She Took Away From Me


2009
12.08

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My ex con­tacted me yes­ter­day want­ing to try and wea­zle her way back into my life. The way she thinks she is going to do this is by get­ting the kids Christ­mas presents. This girl is deranged. She has caused noth­ing but mis­ery in my life. We broke up after she had slept with the 10th or so per­son who came along. She even thought she was preg­nant (she only knew the guy one week and slept with him with­out a condom).

It was after that facade that I broke up with her.  At the same time, my ex, who I love more than any­one I have ever loved, returned back into my life. Cause of her, I lost him, and now I feel like I’m always going to be alone.  I’ve tried so hard to find some­one new, but no one com­pares to him, and I don’t think that they ever will.  Now, she has the guts to try and come back into my life. Is she out of her rocker?

I find out that the guy (she was with in July) and her are still together, and it makes me sick how unfair life is. This evil bitch took every­thing from me. Now, she is in love while I have noth­ing. I am try­ing so hard not to hate her and be happy for her, but it’s so hard. Why are peo­ple, like this girl, the ones who always get rewarded? I just want to go to sleep and travel back in time to when I had G. I want to be able to do every­thing over again, so I can get him back and tell that stu­pid, crazy girl to go to hell.

I’m angry and sad cause it’s just not right. She doesn’t deserve a thing. I told her to leave my kids and I alone. I told her not to get them any gifts, but she said she still will. I will just donate the presents. I might as well take a neg­a­tive and make it into a positive.

UPDATE: I feel bet­ter now.  I went to sleep and no longer want to think about it.  I’m not going to com­pare myself to her any­more.  My stan­dards are higher than hers, and I am a stronger per­son, so it’s going to be harder to find someone.


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Trouble Letting Go of Ex


2009
10.02

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It seems like every time I decide to let go of my ex, she comes crawl­ing back when I least expect it. In July, she lit­er­ally told me to “f*ck off” and leave her alone. This is when I was just try­ing to be friends with, in hopes that some­thing could rekin­dle, and we could be together. After months of not hear­ing from her, I get a text mes­sage. “I’m glad that you’re happy. I read your blog” I shouldn’t have responded, but I did. I just wrote back: “I hope you are happy as well. Bye L.” She kept tex­ting, but I ignored them. It’s done.

I spent over three and half years wait­ing around hop­ing that she would even­tu­ally close her legs to any guy or girl who came around and focus on me.  The day never came.  I find out this past spring that while she could never be faith­ful to me, she was to another woman.  It pained me.  My friend thinks it’s cause she always felt like I was the one with the power in the rela­tion­ship, so she always felt like she had to rebel.  I think he might be right because she used to always say she was so weak with me.  Even when she said she didn’t want to talk to me, she said it’s cause she is too obsessed with  me.

I have started dat­ing this guy, and I am feel­ing pretty pos­i­tive about it.  We seem to get along, and he makes me smile.  Will things work out between us?  Who knows, but all I can do is remain opti­mistic and not reac­quaint myself with peo­ple who con­stantly cheat and lie to me.  I still love her, but love isn’t everything.

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Working with Ex Lookalike


2009
09.09

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dopple­ganger, orig­i­nally uploaded by kaz­erin.

At work, I started work­ing with this guy. The prob­lem? He looks and acts like my ex. The ex who still haunts my dream, and I have loved more than any man. I am really dread­ing work­ing with this guy any longer. He makes me think about my ex more than I should. It’s crazy how every­thing about this man reminds me of him:

The way he walks, his clothes, his cocky atti­tude, his smile, the way he bites his bot­tom lip when he is think­ing, the way he stares at me, how seri­ous he is when he is talk­ing, but in a sec­ond, he begins to smirk

I can tell he is inter­ested in me, but this dopple­ganger makes me want to run the other way. It makes me think about how obsessed and blind I was. When this dopple­ganger talks and stares at me, I feel the urge to pas­sion­ately kiss him, but then I remem­ber that he isn’t my ex. All that is left is this feel­ing of lone­li­ness that has creeped up on me.

What should you do if you work for some­one who reminds you of your ex? All you can do is grin and bear it. One thing I have started to do is not look at this man as much as I was before. If I feel myself think­ing about my ex, I quickly think about some­thing else. Keep­ing busy is key.

Will this lonely feel­ing go away? It will when I stop work­ing with this man. Let’s just hope that it’s soon.


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Letting Go of a Past Relationship


2009
08.20

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leav­ing the past behind you…, orig­i­nally uploaded by Jef­frey Eric.

Every self-help book that I have read has the same phi­los­o­phy when it comes to the past. Leave it behind. You will never be able to move for­ward if you are still dwelling on it. It’s some­thing that I keep get­ting bet­ter at doing in all parts of my life, except my love life.

I keep think­ing about two of my exes, and I know that I won’t be able to find some­one who I can be in a healthy rela­tion­ship with until I for­get them. They were both detri­men­tal to my emo­tional and phys­i­cal health, so I know that I can’t keep think­ing about them. Out of two, I will have to say that L. is the one I really have to stop think­ing about. Our three-year rela­tion­ship was filled with her con­stant cheat­ing, lies, and psy­cho­log­i­cal imbal­ance. She was abu­sive and mean. I know that she hasn’t changed, even though she says she has, so I don’t know why it’s so hard to stop think­ing about this girl.

It’s hard when it’s some­one of the same gen­der. She is not just your lover; she is also your best friend. With a guy, you can mope around for a bit, but even­tu­ally, you get up and keep going. With a woman, you feel like you have no one, espe­cially when you alien­ated every­one to the point that it was just you two.

I am slowly for­get­ting about her cause I know that she has ridicu­lous issues. A month ago, I joined eHar­mony, and I am meet­ing some amaz­ing guys. There are three that I am really inter­ested in, so I am excited to say that I am going out with my top one out of three this Sat­ur­day, so wish me luck!


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