Am I run­ning out of time?

You sit here. Over 30 years old. All your clos­est friends are mar­ried. Many of them have kids. Now they are begin­ning to play kids sports together. They take fam­ily trips together. When it is guys night out they love to live vic­ar­i­ously through me but that last but a night. What hap­pened to how it was in the late 80’s tele­vi­sion show ‘A Dif­fer­ent World’? I thought you go to col­lege or grad school and meet your sup­posed wife and live hap­pily ever after? How naive I was in my younger years. They say “be patient” or “all good things come to those who wait”. Really? I hope so because my patience is being tested. If my hopes were an emo­tion, they would be wary. Gen­er­ally you assume that all your clos­ests friends and fam­ily will be around when it is finally time to get hitched. What if that is not the case? What if a par­ent passes away? What if a close friend or sib­ling sud­denly goes? These ques­tions roll through my head on a peri­odic basis. I’m not try­ing to be mor­bid but this needs to be asked.

I see some friends who are active with their kids. I want that. Even older friends play com­pet­i­tive sports with their kids. I would love that. But … Am I run­ning out of time?

Sin­gle life is cool don’t get me wrong. But sin­gle for­ever? Not so much. I work, I play, I am open to new ideas … But so far that elu­sive great one has not appeared. Will it work out for me before the clock strikes midnight?

Or am I out of time?