2010
01.31



I swear … this timing thing just never works out how it is supposed to.
If timing knew better, it would have arranged for the young lady who worked for me to be single and then NOT work with me. Long story but it just seems like an opportunity missed.
If timing knew better, it would make sure the girl I hit it off with last year wasn’t on a severe rebound and unable to see what was in front of her (me!).
Why does timing still mess with me and just leave me wondering week after week? I just don’t understand it. “Be Patient”. “Good things come to those who wait.” “Good things happen to good people” Blah, blah, blah … Ugh …
It sure seems like I can’t catch a break. I will say that timing did me favor by letting me see that this girl was a true flake. +1 point for timing. You are still down –4 point.
I am about to go truly stir crazy. I feel like a top that is just spinning around and around with no direction to go towards. This isn’t getting better.
Category tips |
2010
01.25

My sister told me not to give up and started an EHarmony account for me again. I decided that I am busy, but ok, I will give it a shot. I start talking to this guy, and he asks to meet tomorrow. Even though I am busy, I was looking forward to getting out of the house and meeting someone new. I check my EHarmony account today, and he closed the match. Reason?
“Want to pursue other matches.”
I’m feeling discouraged. I know I shouldn’t be like this for one person, but why is it so hard for me to find someone? Even my ex, who ruined my life, has found someone, and I can’t find a single person? Am I destined to be alone? I don’t want to be 40 and still dating random guys.
I honestly feel that there is something wrong with me. I’m so tired of people saying that I am beautiful, smart, and have it going on, and I will find someone new. It’s been how long, and I still can’t find a single person?
Should I give up? I am tired of being rejected. I really am. It’s one of the reasons that I have been obsessed with work. I hate feeling like no one wants to take a chance to be with me. I’m 31, and I feel like the boat is leaving.
Tags: discouraged about love, giving up, giving up on love Category dating |
2010
01.21

I went to a party this past Sunday and I realized I am in trouble. I was in a lounge/club and there were a few people there. As the party continued, I became so focused on the music and what the DJ was playing, my interest in mingling with the crowd waned quickly. Please note I was supposed to meet some people there but they no-showed so I was left there kind of alone (which is cool). I did see some people there that I knew so we chatted for a bit. For the whole part of the night though, I was just grooving to the music. And felt good too. However, I didn’t mingle very much so the night would seem to be a failure, right?
I’m in trouble and I don’t know how to get better.
Image courtest of Michael Alan
Tags: love, Music Category dating |
2010
01.12

I said that I was giving up on love. Why is it that now I am seeing all these cute guys?! First, my friend brings a cute guy to lunch, and we kept looking at one another. Now, I notice at work that there is this cute guy who works on my floor. We both headed to the elevator, and he started talking to me. I was tongue tied because I didn’t know what to say. In a way, I wanted to talk to him, but then again, I didn’t.
I probably will never see him again, but I wonder why all of a sudden I am seeing all these good-looking guys? I wonder if I should see this as a sign to not give up and that there is still hope. I’m starting to head in that kind of thinking. Is it a sign? Or is it fate playing me a raw hand once again?
All I know is that I am tired of wasting my time and getting hurt. Maybe it’s a way to admire all the hotties out there without having to deal with any pain.
Tags: crush, cute guys, giving up, hope, hope in love Category love |