Timing is a b*tch …

2010
01.31

I swear … this tim­ing thing just never works out how it is sup­posed to.

If tim­ing knew bet­ter, it would have arranged for the young lady who worked for me to be sin­gle and then NOT work with me. Long story but it just seems like an oppor­tu­nity missed.

If tim­ing knew bet­ter, it would make sure the girl I hit it off with last year wasn’t on a severe rebound and unable to see what was in front of her (me!).

Why does tim­ing still mess with me and just leave me won­der­ing week after week? I just don’t under­stand it. “Be Patient”. “Good things come to those who wait.” “Good things hap­pen to good peo­ple” Blah, blah, blah … Ugh …

It sure seems like I can’t catch a break. I will say that tim­ing did me favor by let­ting me see that this girl was a true flake. +1 point for tim­ing. You are still down –4 point.

I am about to go truly stir crazy. I feel like a top that is just spin­ning around and around with no direc­tion to go towards. This isn’t get­ting better.

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Feeling Discouraged

2010
01.25

Rebel

My sis­ter told me not to give up and started an EHar­mony account for me again.  I decided that I am busy, but ok, I will give it a shot.  I start talk­ing to this guy, and he asks to meet tomor­row.  Even though I am busy, I was look­ing for­ward to get­ting out of the house and meet­ing some­one new.  I check my EHar­mony account today, and he closed the match.  Reason?

Want to pur­sue other matches.”

I’m feel­ing dis­cour­aged.  I know I shouldn’t be like this for one per­son, but why is it so hard for me to find some­one?  Even my ex, who ruined my life, has found some­one, and I can’t find a sin­gle per­son? Am I des­tined to be alone?  I don’t want to be 40 and still dat­ing ran­dom guys. 

I hon­estly feel that there is some­thing wrong with me.  I’m so tired of peo­ple say­ing that I am beau­ti­ful, smart, and have it going on, and I will find some­one new.  It’s been how long, and I still can’t find a sin­gle person?

Should I give up? I am tired of being rejected. I really am.  It’s one of the rea­sons that I have been obsessed with work.  I hate feel­ing like no one wants to take a chance to be with me.  I’m 31, and I feel like the boat is leaving. 

I’m in Trouble

2010
01.21


I went to a party this past Sun­day and I real­ized I am in trou­ble. I was in a lounge/club and there were a few peo­ple there. As the party con­tin­ued, I became so focused on the music and what the DJ was play­ing, my inter­est in min­gling with the crowd waned quickly. Please note I was sup­posed to meet some peo­ple there but they no-showed so I was left there kind of alone (which is cool). I did see some peo­ple there that I knew so we chat­ted for a bit. For the whole part of the night though, I was just groov­ing to the music. And felt good too. How­ever, I didn’t min­gle very much so the night would seem to be a fail­ure, right?

I’m in trou­ble and I don’t know how to get better.

Image cour­test of Michael Alan

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Do Inmates Deserve Love Too?

2010
01.16
My ques­tion to you there­fore is this: if an inmate has signed up for a dat­ing site that caters to their incar­cer­a­tion, is it ok? Does the fact that the site has already pre­de­ter­mined all users are behind bars make it clear enough, or should inmates be barred alto­gether from find­ing love online? Does what they’ve been con­victed of mat­ter, or should only cer­tain types of inmates be allowed to seek love online?

I think it depends on the crime. If they caused harm to some­one in any way, then they shouldn’t. How­ever, if it’s petty crime, why not?

My ques­tion to you there­fore is this: if an inmate has signed up for a dat­ing site that caters to their incar­cer­a­tion, is it ok? Does the fact that the site has already pre­de­ter­mined all users are behind bars make it clear enough, or should inmates be barred alto­gether from find­ing love online? Does … Posted via web from Love and the City

Where Are All These Cute Guys Coming From?

2010
01.12

I said that I was giv­ing up on love. Why is it that now I am see­ing all these cute guys?! First, my friend brings a cute guy to lunch, and we kept look­ing at one another. Now, I notice at work that there is this cute guy who works on my floor. We both headed to the ele­va­tor, and he started talk­ing to me. I was tongue tied because I didn’t know what to say. In a way, I wanted to talk to him, but then again, I didn’t.

I prob­a­bly will never see him again, but I won­der why all of a sud­den I am see­ing all these good-looking guys? I won­der if I should see this as a sign to not give up and that there is still hope. I’m start­ing to head in that kind of think­ing. Is it a sign? Or is it fate play­ing me a raw hand once again?

All I know is that I am tired of wast­ing my time and get­ting hurt. Maybe it’s a way to admire all the hot­ties out there with­out hav­ing to deal with any pain.