
This is a saying the many people use when you go through tough times in life whether it be a death in the family or a breakup or losing a job. Very rarely will you discover the reason for this specific event in a short period of time. I had the fortune of hearing a little gossip on Saturday that related to a young lady I liked back in the July/August timeframe who chose a public party to be rude to me and basically show me she didn’t respect me or even like me like that. This was an event that infuriated me and took me a little bit to get over. Well, this weekend I heard that this same girl (who was dating the same boy she “left” me for at the aforementioned party) had cheated on this boy with another guy. When I heard this information, I immediately knew why I had such a rude experience with her. That was done to save me from future heartache from her because she is obviously not worthy of my time. A few close friends would tell me this, but I had to learn on my own. Now I have confirmation. Thank you. Now if I could only find out why I few other things have happened I would be straight. I will be patient wait.
Archive for the ‘dating’ Category
Everything Happens for a Reason
03.01
Dating When Grieving
02.12
A guy on EHarmony, who was the only one I was really interested in wants to meet for drinks. He doesn’t know that I am dealing with a death of a loved one, so for him, I am available. I feel like I don’t want to do anything. I don’t have much emotion, and I feel empty inside. I feel more alone than ever, and I don’t care to really find anyone now. However, is it healthy to want to not do a damn thing? I know it isn’t, but I just don’t seem to care.
My Favorite Valentine’s Day Memories Part 1
02.11

Valentine’s Day is quickly approaching and instead of posting a bitter, angry sad post, I will like to share with all of you some of my favorite Valentine’s Day memories.
The first one takes me back to 10th grade and a crush I had. It was the middle of basketball season and I was in an advanced Anatomy & Physiology class. My deskmate was a cutie who was a Varsity Cheerleader and also smart as hell. We interacted so much during class and then at times after school because of basketball. Of course a crush developed quickly and strongly. During high school, I also worked a part time job so I had some extra change. Normally in our high school, for Valentine’s Day they would deliver carnations to people in their classes (of course you had to pay). I had the genius idea of sending her a carnation delivery while we were in class together. A little bold, but fun, I went for it. The day came and as class was almost over the fire alarm went off. At the same time, here comes the carnation delivery. The impact of my thoughfulness was gone. She still got the delivery and knew it was from me, but I missed my 15 minutes of sitting next to her after the delivery to really “make my move.” I never got the chance again.
Nevertheless, this is one of my favorite Valentine’s Day memories. Stay tuned for more later on in the week.
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Feeling Discouraged
01.25
My sister told me not to give up and started an EHarmony account for me again. I decided that I am busy, but ok, I will give it a shot. I start talking to this guy, and he asks to meet tomorrow. Even though I am busy, I was looking forward to getting out of the house and meeting someone new. I check my EHarmony account today, and he closed the match. Reason?
“Want to pursue other matches.”
I’m feeling discouraged. I know I shouldn’t be like this for one person, but why is it so hard for me to find someone? Even my ex, who ruined my life, has found someone, and I can’t find a single person? Am I destined to be alone? I don’t want to be 40 and still dating random guys.
I honestly feel that there is something wrong with me. I’m so tired of people saying that I am beautiful, smart, and have it going on, and I will find someone new. It’s been how long, and I still can’t find a single person?
Should I give up? I am tired of being rejected. I really am. It’s one of the reasons that I have been obsessed with work. I hate feeling like no one wants to take a chance to be with me. I’m 31, and I feel like the boat is leaving.
I’m in Trouble
01.21

I went to a party this past Sunday and I realized I am in trouble. I was in a lounge/club and there were a few people there. As the party continued, I became so focused on the music and what the DJ was playing, my interest in mingling with the crowd waned quickly. Please note I was supposed to meet some people there but they no-showed so I was left there kind of alone (which is cool). I did see some people there that I knew so we chatted for a bit. For the whole part of the night though, I was just grooving to the music. And felt good too. However, I didn’t mingle very much so the night would seem to be a failure, right?
I’m in trouble and I don’t know how to get better.
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