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Last year, I hoped that by the end of 2010, I would be engaged.  How­ever, I never found any­one last year, so it’s doubt­ful that this will hap­pen.  I’ve decided to forego love for awhile.  My busi­ness is tak­ing off, and I want to ded­i­cate all of my energy and effort to finally quit­ting my job and free­lance full-time.  There­fore, I don’t have time for love. 

Behind my back, my sis­ter re-established my EHar­mony account, but I told her that she can do that because I don’t have any hope for love right now.  It’d be sur­pris­ing if she does find some­one for me, but I am not hold­ing my breath.  My friend, who’s wed­ding is in Mex­ico, found her fiancée on the dat­ing site, and in the first month.  I had the sub­scrip­tion for three months and didn’t find any­one.  Well…not entirely true.  I found depressed guy who wasted two months of my life.  I guess in a way, I did find some­one in the first month. 

Today, my friend brought her friend to lunch.  He was hot, and I couldn’t help but look at him.  I saw him star­ing at me too, and I felt an instant attrac­tion.  How­ever, I forced myself to not think about it.  I have to con­cen­trate on my busi­ness, and I hate hav­ing to do the whole awk­ward “I  have kids” speech, so I’d rather not exert any energy.  Not going to lie though, I couldn’t help but feel tingly inside when he looked at me.  I noticed that when he hugged me good­bye, he kind of lin­gered, and I did as well. 

Ok back to work.

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Tags: forgetting about love, giving up on love, i quit love, no love

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