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Afraid of Falling in Love

2009
10.22

Let­ting some­one in is some­thing that I fear. Every time I do, I feel like my heart gets ripped into a mil­lion pieces. I’ve been dat­ing this guy for almost two months, and I am start­ing to freak out. I haven’t liked another guy since G. in over four years. He has been noth­ing but cold for almost a year, so I don’t want to do this to myself again.

love is a gam­ble and you might get your heart tram­pled on, but you have to keep on trying
 I was watch­ing “Ghosts of Girl­friends Past,” and even though the movie was mediocre, there was one thing that stuck with me. Con­nor Mead says that love is a gam­ble and you might get your heart tram­pled on, but you have to keep on try­ing. It’s some­thing that I know but are hav­ing a hard time doing with­out almost break­ing out in hives. What if I give myself to another per­son again? What is he hurts me the way I have been in the past?

I do want to get mar­ried one day and have more chil­dren. The only way I am going to do this is by putting myself out there. If this guy doesn’t want to pur­sue things with me, then I will even­tu­ally find some­one who does. I already know that he is poten­tial.  Let’s just hope that if he does decide to end it, it doesn’t hurt as much as it did with G. or L.

Photo Detail: 2009_ghost_of_girlfriends_past_002, orig­i­nally uploaded by Sine­Gar­gara.


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